Wake Up Call

Before the field trip we had in TFDP (Taskforce Detainees of the Philippines) last March 3, 2014, I confess that though I was curious, I felt a tinge of apathy. After our visit, I felt like I should be slapped across the face. I was shocked with all the emotions I felt from all the revelations that came my way. I was disturbed that I felt apathy at all.

Apathy. It is the lack of interest, enthusiasm, or concern. It is indifference. Honestly, I was seriously alarmed. I felt guilty. I felt shame. And just like any other human being in denial, I reasoned and justified what I felt with myself: “I felt apathetic because….

1) I was not born yet.
2) I couldn’t have done anything anyway.
3) I don’t think I’d be the type to “fight” anyway.
4) It’s their fault for coloring the world TOO yellow.
5) Nothing really changed after all the fighting.
6) Everything felt like a publicity thing.
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…and many more…..

As you would see, at some point, I started blaming others for what I felt. This just made my list longer and the thing is, it really didn’t make me feel any better.

If you know me personally, you would have noticed how much I believe in Someone up there or an external power like fate. All semester long, I’ve been trying to figure out why I was put in the Project Nameless Collective. After this, I think I just found out. This was a wake up call for me. I was given the chance to snap out of my apathetic state and to become more involved.

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2 thoughts on “Wake Up Call

  1. I think everyone of us was really exposed because of CWTS! I think CWTS has served its purpose to enlighten us and see what is really happening to our country. It showed us that there is something more outside the ‘world’ we are living in. 🙂

  2. The TFDP field trip was really eye opening! From the model of the prison cells, to the shirts stained with blood and photos of massacres, we were truly exposed to how brutal those times were.

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