Recently, by some miracle, I got elected as the Chairperson for the Community Development Committee of the organization I belong to: The UP Economics Society. Perhaps I have broken the record of the most number of abstains – probably because of I didn’t campaign too much (as in I campaigned to a really small number of people) or because people just didn’t believe I could lead or maybe even because on the surface, I may appear indifferent towards the community; yet here I am, the next chairperson for the said committee. At first, of course, the whooping number of abstained voters had a negative effect on my self-esteem, confidence and even the want to actually pursue the position I got elected for. Voices in my head told me I’m not good enough, or my orgmates didn’t want me, among other things. I was also shy to tell my sister and her boyfriend (lol) – who were both past CDC Chairpersons, and my friend who’s a former president of the same org, about the results.
However, I told myself that the number of people who voted for me was still larger than those who abstained. Consequently, there were actually more people who believed in me, and I didn’t want to let them down. In my heart, I knew I should deliver. Furthermore, I told myself beforehand that I was running for the position of Community Development Committee chairperson mainly to serve the org and even more, the community. Having said that, I knew I had to stay strong to and let go of the hurt pride, etc.
I know that the road will be rough, and I know I have to prove myself to many people.The position I enlisted myself into also entails a lot of perseverance and sacrifice. I know this job will be physically, mentally and emotionally testing. However, I also know I really have the heart for this. In the end, I know I can and should believe in my self. Lastly, deep in my heart, I really want to try to make a difference in the community.
“Everybody can be great…because anybody can serve. You don’t have to have a college degree to serve. You don’t have to make your subject and verb agree to serve. You only need a heart full of grace. A soul generated by love.” – Martin Luther King Jr.
Jose Carlo S. Fernandez